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Wednesday, December 31, 2014

When Things Come Together in a New Way


 "Volcano" by Bettina Madini
Watercolor and ink on paper
22"h x 30"W

When Gary Douglas says that our creations have a life force of their own, I can just say "Yes! Totally!" I so know this from painting! How often have I tried to 'fight' a painting! Sort of "What? I don't want to paint you!" .... (so cute!....) 

Yet, if I allow them to move through, and I create with them, and I don't have a point of view or even thought (thoughts never help, ever noticed?), and I be the space of creation, magic is there, with me! 

"Volcano" came out of the Blue. Didn't have it as an idea, didn't 'compose it' cognitively and created it in the moment. From the Space of Creation!

Tuesday, December 30, 2014

Creation Space - Meditation by Bettina



I recorded this meditation today! "Creation Space"

Enter the Space of Creation and Be it! For the creation of a future that you would enjoy!
Happy New Year to you!

If you could create anything, what would you create? What do you want your life to be like? What would you like to create for the future? And what if that was not solid, but rather an energy?
This meditation guides you into being the space of you! The space of all possibilities! Enjoy!


Please feel free to download the file!

Thursday, December 11, 2014

When Things Seem Out of Control


 "Sky Being", by Bettina

Things seem to be pretty much out of control right now in my life. It’s not that crazy-frenzy-type-out-of-control, but more of a wide-open-space-out-of-control. I cannot  even imagine what the next three months will be like. I have no idea what I am going to create. Nothing seems solid, and anything seems possible.

Do you have that in your universe too? It could be easy to go into freak-out about that. Yet, what if, instead, we were in wonder? What that means is to not make this space, the out-of-control-space, wrong. What if it is the mind freaking out, desperately trying to figure it out, to decide and conclude? What if, at this point, our minds don’t work any more? I ask “Is this part of the change I have been asking for?” And the answer is “Yes!”.

Another wonderful tool to use is “What’s right about this I’m not getting?” I just introduced this tool, this question, in a class yesterday, and it opened space for everyone, and joy was there, and excitement. What if we don’t make the un-solidity wrong? When I ask this question, my entire universe opens up. There is only wide open space. There is infinite possibility. So, with that space, I keep asking questions. Such as “What would I like to create now?”, or “What can I create that will be so much fun and such a contribution to consciousness and to the earth?”

Guess what, the space opens further and there is no freak-out!

Now, I wonder, what if we all have opened a door to a new possibility for being on the planet? And, more even, what if we all have stepped through that door into wide open space of infinite possibility? There is no solidity. Solidity exists where we have made something solid, where we have decided what has to be, what better be, what must be. Where we have concluded from past experience, which is always finite. What if there is no past? Do you also get the sense of freshness and excitement right now? What CAN we create from here? What would you like your life to be like? You as infinite being, yes YOU, what would you like to create? What vision do YOU have of a possibility for being on the planet that includes all, that includes you, that includes the earth? For a sustainable future on the planet?

And what if this knowing of a future is not solid, as it is not yet? The ‘whispers from the future’ are like a feather touch. A breeze. Light and motion. What if the wide open space is an invitation for us all to create something different? Where we don’t lock the energy into a conclusion, an outcome, a result? Instead we stay in question. “What do I do with this?” or “What can I create here that I have never created?” “What else is possible now that I have never considered? And “What can I choose today that I have never chosen?”

What does this create for you? For me, there is such joy of possibility here! There are infinite colors!

One of the things I’m really good at and have great fun with is painting. And I have always wondered what more colors are available that I haven’t seen yet, touched yet, bathed in, enthused about, played with, feathered, danced, laughed with, explored, enjoyed, sung with, breathed in, exhaled, marveled, mused, birthed?

Oh, my friends, what if we all say yes to the invitation to a dance beyond this reality, and we composed the "Infinite Greatness of Living" Symphony? Are you willing to spread your wings and fly?

Thursday, October 23, 2014

What if you Could Quiet your mind?



The joy of quieting your mind and the benefit of it is not a new idea. There are ways that have been around for quite some time, like meditation, yoga, breathing and many other approaches and techniques. I used to practice many of those regularly, for many years. They would create great ease in my life and bring me to a happier place. Yet, that wouldn’t last.

Whenever I went out into the world, I would get dragged back into negative thinking, sadness, upset and frustration. What was that? I could, of course, choose to go live in a cave or a monastery and not go out into the world. I could just live the life of a hermit. This didn’t feel very appealing to me, not this time around.

After all these years of practice, what was it that kept me from being the happy being I knew I was, all the time? Whether theta or delta wave meditation, gong or energy balancing, what kept me from going beyond the walls that I sensed in my universe? What kept them in place?

On top of that, I knew something different was possible. I knew that already when I was a child! I knew that the greyness of the masses wasn’t my reality, and wandering blindfoldedly and numbly around in this world and performing repetitive tasks was not what I would choose. No! Not for me! I always loved being out there, I loved creating, I loved the wonder of this world! And I have so many dreams!

How was it possible that, with all the meditations, chantings, praying, healing singing and everything else, the planet was in such a state of destruction? What was it that kept the mind active? This monotonous repetitive thinking?  The easy buy into upset, intrigue and frustration?

I had an urge in me to find what that was! There was something that I couldn’t quiet down. Something that I somehow remembered, without knowing what that exactly was. And whatever it was, it was very real and possible to me. I knew my dreams were not utopia! They were real! They were possible!

I have been reading in spiritual newsletters and changelings for years how important it is to empty the mind and to not think. I could get to a space of bliss, then, yet only temporarily. I didn’t have the tools that would help me to be there, all the time, and to make a sustainable difference in my world.

Just recently, I read again about how we create from thoughts, feelings and emotions. And if we don’t watch out what we’re thinking, any destructive thoughts would also show up in our lives as what we were creating.

Do you remember moments when you didn’t have thoughts? Or, asking the other way around, when you had your last moment of joy, expansion, happiness, in that very moment, did you experience drag and impossibility? Or was your universe full of possibility? Did you then run into someone and have an amazing conversation? Were you inspired? Did you have great ideas?

I’m talking about that space! Ever noticed that there are no thoughts in that space?

What if everything you always dreamed of, what if this was something you knew was possible? What if we could have and be that inspired space all the time? And, where and when did you allow the naysayers to spoil your dream?

Does John Lennon’s “Imagine” move you, at all? “You can say I’m a dreamer. But I’m not the only one. I know some day you’ll join us. And the world will be as one.” What if we never give up our dreams, not for anybody? We could choose to be in allowance of everybody’s points of view and still not give up our visions and dreams.

I am a dreamer, I have always been.  Then, these years back, I somehow got caught in the net of impossibility, caught by the invisible fisherman of this reality. Luckily, I had built into my blueprint map of this lifetime, these possibilities for encounters with amazing people, friends from many lifetimes. They always pop up in my life, at these incredible intersections!

So, through several, seemingly ‘random’ encounters in 2012, I came across Access Bars®, an energy technique that assists in letting go of limitations and judgments, just by gently touching certain points on the head. I had my first session, then, and it created the space of being that I knew was possible. And that space wouldn’t shrink when I went into the world.  It made a sustainable difference for me. It is possible to quiet the mind and to be the space of you.

Would you please allow me to be that friend for you, popping out of nowhere today and tapping on your shoulder gently asking ‘Hey my friend, what if there was a different possibility?”

What dreams do you know are possible? And, if you bought into the lies of this reality, what if you can change that? What if you still are the dreamer?  What inspiration can you be for the world?

Monday, October 6, 2014

Interesting Point of View


 
Today, I would like to touch a subject that so many people don’t like or don’t want to talk about: money. In my family, luckily, I learned that it’s ok to talk about anything, to bring up anything! So, we did talk money. And for me, that was ‘normal’. Later on in my life, I learned that for many people it was a tabu. Money was the thing that was bad or hidden, a secret, or just not ‘ethical’ to talk about. That didn’t make sense to me at all. And in the past 2 years, I have been talking about money and points of views around and about money openly in my classes. And I am so grateful for the tools that I have received from Access Consciousness®. Also, I found so many limitations with money that I had in my own universe!

Interestingly enough, whatever we think about money reveals quite a bit about ourselves and the ways we limit ourselves.

I encounter a lot of people who have points of view about what they can ‘afford’. Be it for buying a painting, choosing a class and having points of view about the price, etc. And I found also that there were certain amounts of money that would trigger a ‘that’s too much’ in my universe too! Very much like a ‘threshold’ that would make me back off. Especially when it was about a class that I would love to take! All the joy that I had sensed about the class energetically and what it would contribute to me, evaporated in a cold, shrinking blaze! Paying $2000 for a class for me was just way outside of my universe! Wow! What was that? What was I actually creating with money? And what if that was not true? What if there was no amount of money that was too much? What if we could create any amount of money, any time?

On top of that, how much receiving had I cut off? Would that same money barrier limit what I was willing to receive? How much was I actually using money as an excuse not to choose what would expand my life?

And was all that actually true for me? Or who’s point of view had I bought?

I remember, once I bought a pair of sunglasses for 250 EUR. That almost blew me, yet I loved them so much that I just did it. Afterwards, I had to do quite some work in order to let go of the negative thoughts that I had come up within me, like “Who do you think you are?” Do you know that one? This was 15 years ago, and I didn’t have the tools yet that I have today. Today I would reply “Who do YOU think that I’m NOT?” and “By the way, who are you? And what are you doing here?”

I had bought so many beliefs and points of view and limitations from my family, from memories that they had from war times, deprivation, starvation and lack! What if we never took any point of view as real? Any point of view, be it positive or negative, will always put us into polarity and will make us agree or resist. None of these will actually give us choice. None of them will allow us to expand beyond this reality and create our own reality.

Here’s a couple of things you can try out when negative thoughts and beliefs come up:

1. Say “Interesting point of view that I have this point of view!®” This might shift the energy of the situation right away. What if everything is just an interesting point of view?

2. Ask “Who does this belong to?®” It might lighten up right away. The heaviness might go away right away! It then was not your point of view to begin with.

3. Ask “Is this my reality?” and “What would my reality be?” What IS your reality? Do YOU actually believe that there is only a limited amount of money that you can receive? Or would your reality have money come to you magically from everywhere? Effortlessly? Easily? Without even thinking about it?

4. Get your “Bars® run”! If you never have received this amazing energy work called “The Bars®”, you might want to consider this treat for you and your body. The Bars® are certain points on your head that the facilitator will gently touch while you lie down and relax and receive the energy. These points are related to all kind of areas of life, such as joy, sadness, creativity, body, healing, control, awareness, sex, aging and money. Touching these points will allow the body and you, the being, to let go of any judgments and limitations in these areas, no matter when you created them. Find a practitioner in your area here: http://bars.accessconsciousness.com/

What CAN you create if you don’t have a point of view about anything? Can you receive more money if you don’t have a point of view about what amount of money is too much to pay out?

What if you could create your life from the awareness of what your choice will create for you? Rather than allowing money to choose for you?

What if truly anything IS possible?


Bettina Madini is an artist, singer and an Access Consciousness® Certified Facilitator. Born in Berlin, Germany, she is currently living in the Midwest in the United States. Bettina’s paintings can be found in corporate and private collections in Europe, Australia and in the United States. She offers Painting workshops and facilitates Access Consciousness® Core Classes, internationally. To find Bettina’s classes and see her art work please visit:  www.BettinaStar-Rose.com.

All the tools in this article are derived from Access Consciousness®. Read more about Access Consciousness® at www.AccessConsciousness.com.

Friday, October 3, 2014

A Wonderfully Gloomy Day - What's Your Reality?



I was slipping into some dragging energy earlier today, some winy-sad-ish type of 'gloom'. It would have been very easy to drag myself into the complainer-point of view, how nothing was right, how nobody would make me something tasty to eat, and how my grandmother and my mother were the only ones who would have a cup of coffee for me, how gloomy the day was... and, oops, this was the moment when I caught it! What was that? A gloomy day? "That's an interesting point of view!", I thought!


What makes a day gloomy? Not too long ago I was wishing for rain and so happy when it arrived! So, I started asking a question! What else could I choose here? I know I love nature! I do love rain! I love wind! Of course, I love the sun and a warm breeze, too! Yet, what makes rain and cold wind wrong or bad? What if this was just a point of view? The energy started shifting!

I wondered, what else I could choose? I asked my body! Painting? Emm, no! Knitting? No. Running, walking? Nooo. Cookies? Oh, there was light in my world! The sun was rising, and my body jumped with excitement. Ok, so cookies then! All of a sudden, it was really fun to make my favorite cookies! (which are, by the way, shortbread cookies!) I had some dried lavender flowers from my garden and sprinkled them on some of them! Lots of butter! You have to have lots of butter! My body loves it! And honey! 


I was singing while the oven heated up! Oh, how 'snugglish'! And the smell when they were baking! You don't get that in the summer! Even if you would be baking, it would not be the same! There is something about baking aromas on a cold day! I went in the garden and picked some of the last, red and totally tasty apples, picked some mint for fresh mint tea and some of the last zinnias for prettiness.

It turned out to feel like a feast! (It still IS a feast!) The energy had totally shifted, and I was and still am so grateful for each ingredient on my banquet table! 

 It is SO true! Your point of view does create your reality! I shifted my point of view, and my reality changed! All of a sudden, I heard the fairies giggle again, the leaves laughing on their wild-wind-ride, I sensed the gratitude of the earth for the rain and the joy of living!

I wonder who's point of view I had bought into? What if we had no point of view about weather or the forecasts? What if we had no point of view about snow or rain or sun or wind or..... Once a wise man said to me "There is no bad weather, there is only the wrong clothes!"

So, here I am celebrating the moment! My reality includes the magic of changing the energy of a moment! Where I can make a different choice. Nothing is real, nothing is true. Everything is just an interesting point of view.

What's your reality?

Sending you sunshine and snowy raindrops! (with fairy sparkles, of course!)

Friday, September 12, 2014

Turn around!




I had one of those days yesterday….  I had concluded that ‘nothing was working’… and I was all alone in the universe….  I stood again in front of a wall! What would it take for me to move beyond it? Was this even true? All this creative energy was welling up inside of me like a huge tsunami, an explosion that wanted to make me scream!!!! (or roar!....)
What’s going on here? What is this wall?

Ok, I thought, meditate on this one. I hadn’t went into what I call ‘my inner circle’ for many years. In a way I had always considered it my ‘LaLaLand’ and not really taken it for ‘real’. (HmHm?)

Yeah, I know what you’re thinking now! Cute, yet not very bright. … Yes! Am I good at judging me for everything I be and do and like? Yeah. I’m not only good, I’m brilliant!  ….

Well, anyway, I chose to go into my ‘inner circle’. To my surprise, everybody was still there! The beings of light that I had not visited in many years still were there for me…. (Bewildered, I thought, so, what if this is not LaLaLand? Could this be real? And what if it’s real for me? And what if that’s ok? (more cuteness….)) Humbled by the awareness of what is true for me, I asked ‘What is this wall?’ And, again, I sensed it in front of me, high and made of steel and brick, solid and unwavering. My guides looked at me silently and a bit amused. “What’s so entertaining about me?”, I thought. And inside of me I heard a whisper. Kindly and slightly smiling, the voice said “Turn around!” I almost heard a giggle when I did turn around. What I saw took my breath for the fraction of a second… Wide open space, above the clouds, amazing colors, pink, blue, gold, purple, green and red, all colors of the rainbow! Everything was clear, fresh and open. Everything is possible here! There is an invitation here. It’s like “Come and play! What would you like to create? What if anything is possible now? What if the struggle is over and past?”

So, all this time I had stood there by the wall, desperately trying to move beyond while all possibilities were there already? I turned around briefly and saw that brick metal wall. It was further away now and didn’t look menacing any longer. I realized that it was actually the past! I had moved beyond it already and I had been standing by it, pinned to it on the other side. Had I been THAT used to that wall? Was it SO familiar to me that I stayed by it, thinking it was still there, not realizing that I could move on, freely???    Wow! I started laughing!

How many of you are still standing by the familiar grounds of your wall(s), thinking it’s still yours? What if you turned around?

How much are we used to our limitations and judgments? How often do we actually check on the past? Like “Wait a minute! Let me see how that was! That was so familiar! I can relate to it, as I had bought it as being me! Why don’t I stay there a little longer?” and then we forget that we can actually turn around and leave that illusionary ‘safe haven’ behind?

What if we don’t need to hold onto some kind of "safety net", the steel rod on the trapeze any longer, but open our wings and fly? Would an infinite being have to hold onto anything or anyone?

Would you be willing to turn around, please?

Thursday, August 28, 2014

Would you be Willing to Step Beyond anyone else's Limitations?


 "Portal to the Temple of Light", by Bettina, 2003

Coming back from a trip to Costa Rica yesterday, I landed in Fort Lauderdale where I had to go through immigrations. I had 1 1/2 hours to catch my next flight. Cool!, I thought. Until I saw the line... Hmmm. After 1/2 hour of labyrinthal 'snaking' in the overcrowded small room, I got an awareness to speed up the process. Asking people for letting me go in front of them, I made my way to the front.... and saw that this just was the entrance to the main room, with many more labyrinthal pathways filled with way too many people to make this fast and ease. My request for an exceptional express procedure was gently denied by the employees. "You have to make your way on your own and ask people to let you go past them!"....

Oh-Oh! One long line after the next, I made it laterally through the room, skipping as I found somebody who allowed me to go in front of them. A gentleman from Germany told me to 'better hurry'! I kept going from face to face, culture to culture, language to language. Until 4 people said "No! We are on the same flight as you, and you just have to stand in line and wait it through as we do!" I sensed a strong line drawn in the sand. It said "Here is what is, and don't you dare asking for something different beyond that, beyond what we choose! We don't ask for more, so dare you asking for more!" The woman and the 2 men were very clear that that was a border not to be crossed. Their angry faces and their body language clearly sent the message of "Oh, pretty curly white face you, dare you!" "Really?", I thought! The energy was strong.

I remembered some things from an amazing Access® class I had just recently completed. One thing was "Is this really relevant?", and I thought "NO!". Another thing was "What if I was willing to be the brilliance of me and fly beyond any limitations that others see as real and true for them?" "Am I willing to pass everybody else, no matter what they will project at me?" And the answer was "Yes!"

I looked back at my new German friend, and all the other faces that were looking at me with curiosity as I stood in front of the wall. My German friend beamed at me and waved at me silently saying "Go! Go! Go!" I turned towards the people who held up the wall and went "OK! NO matter what!" and slipped underneath the zipper line separating me from them, slipped past them, sensing their desire to kill me and hold me back, past everybody else, to the front of the line! A stern gentleman looked at me, and I beamed my joy back at him! I said "Thank you! You are so kind!" and, with a faint smile that he must have held back for ages, he let me fly to the immigration officer!

Now, I still missed my flight. And, I got on the next flight right away which within 1/2 hour later was oversold. Had I waited, I might not even have made it back yesterday. I got a seat in first class and spread sparkles of joy and gratitude and magic everywhere around me. What was so interesting to witness energetically was the energy of "Do not go beyond the box! Go back and stay put! As we don't choose more, you better not choose more. This is what is!" That was a strong pull! And once I chose the energy of 'NO MATTER WHAT, I am choosing what I choose!" there was an energy that was so potent! It was an honoring of me and my choice. It was the willingness to choose what feels light to me! And there was and still is a great excitement about this! To go fly where everyone else says it's impossible. To follow that lightness and create new possibilities. And, if people would choose to not get angry, they could actually choose to have that too. Like "Wow! I'm going too!" That was a possibility that I showed them. If anyone gets angry and annoyed about my choice, it is just because they are not choosing it (yet), and they somewhere know they could make a different choice. Otherwise, they would just not be angry. It got me wondering later how often in my life I stayed put as I didn't want to make anybody 'feel bad'..... And, did this serve anybody?

It certainly didn't serve me. By choosing what works for me and following the energy of the moment, I literally am the invitation for everybody that says "Hey, you can have that too! You just choose it!"

I love the movie "Secretariat". It says there something like "If you don't run your race and give it the best you can and just go for it, you will never know what you can create!"

So, I choose to choose what is light to me! And for me, the moment is now! If I wait in line behind everybody else, waiting for them to choose before I can choose, that might never be! Or take a long time! I choose to not wait for anyone else any longer! I choose to choose NOW! It is time for my brilliance to be me! And I invite you all to choose that also, no matter what that is for you!

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Tuesday, August 19, 2014

Wonder of the Pink Poppy

"Wonder of the Pink Poppy", by Bettina, 2014

Here are 2 more paintings that I just finished. More of the 'Ruffled Princess"..... I had not painted a 'series' before... I wonder, what else is possible with the 'Ruffled Princess' that I couldn't imagine before?

"Ruffled Princess Tale", by Bettina, 2014
"Ruffled Princess At My Garden Gate", by Bettina, 2014

The first one was "Ruffled Princess at my Garden Gate". I'll post it here again, so the series is all together!

The 30-Day-Challenge is over, and my creation space is so wide open, so much more expanded! It's as if molecules are swirling into new possibilities that are not solid. What if this IS just the beginning of so much more? What if THIS IS the beginning of the future that is not yet? Where one feather touch leads to the next, to the next, to the next?

I wish to inspire the world to a new possibility, a possibility of communion and respect, vulnerability and allowance, choices that come from the 'kingdom of we ' that include everything, that come from question rather than answer, that invites possibilities we all couldn't imagine, a beautiful vision of a world of miracle and wonder, with the planet, a sustainable planet. Where we ask for each and every choice that we make what this choice will create, for our lives, for the generations to come, for the planet, for consciousness, for every single tiny particle of magnitude?

What would it take for us to be that? I wondered and stared a bit helplessly into the eyes of my new friend in her white, purple and blue dress. She beamed back at me, with a kindness and nonchalance that I don't quite remember having experienced before. This time, she didn't give me her hand, but she whistled a beautiful sound that made my heart leap. Within seconds, we were surrounded by butterflies! They swirled around us with gentleness and magical power. The world around me turned faster and faster, my vision expanded, and I could see everything at once, past, present, future, spherical vision and vision beyond vision. I thought I would faint, and a deep-indigo butterfly of the most precious spectrum of light and color particles landed on my heart and sat there for a second's eternity, and I started laughing and laughing. My world turned indigo, and I saw the universe, I saw galaxies, I saw stars and planets, and I saw .... light .... The Ruffled Princess and our butterfly escort had taken me into the center of our bubble, and we traveled at the speed of space. I was floating and experiencing, and breathing songs of light and color. Oh, such ease! Such joy! My body transformed and each particle rearranged into a different composition, and we approached the 'Butterfly Planet'. She was beautiful! She was floating space, dancing wings and shimmers composing a swirling symphony of wings and sound. She welcomed me with such kindness! A smile that I will never forget! I took it into my heart, a dance of beauty and power that expanded my awareness in continuity!

How much time I spent there, I don't remember. There was no 'time'. It just didn't exist in that space. Nothing was solid, everything was motion. And so was my body! "The knowledge you acquire here", she said, "will serve you well in many ways on Earth! It will facilitate your body in changing its molecular structure into, let's say, something that is less like a structure and more like a system with a platform. The platform itself is flexible also and will give your body a sense of possibility with being on the Earth in the current condition. The planet is changing, dynamically! It will be quite pleasant for you to have flexibility with your body. Capacities you once had and fairly remember will be reestablished and enhanced to even greater capacities and abilities, all of those you are creating also with your choices. Greater ease with change in the environment and space for living and thriving on Earth. Openings, creations, possibilities. They are yours. They have always been. We heard your call from eons ago. Share not the gift. Be it. We have always been with you. Now, you remember."

And the Butterfly Queen kissed me on my forehead with such tenderness and potent gifting, and I fell into a gentle sleep, drifting into the beauty of the space, with kindness and caring contribution .
I woke up out of my sweet and tender sleep, so refreshed, with new enthusiasm for life and all the unlimited possibilities that the Butterfly Queen revealed to my heart! Where do I start? What would it take to bring this vision of an energy and possibility to fruition, here? I was back in my garden. My body was gently resting on beautiful pillows made from a material that I had not seen before on the planet. Or, ..., did I? Still dreamingly, I gazed at it more closely... A gauze from ancient times, so ethereal and light, so space, .... this must have been a long time ago... Dazzled, I looked closer at the delicate designs with butterflies and stars and dancing molecules, golden threads. My heart expanded into that space. What if..... ?

What are the infinite possibilities for bringing that to fruition, that, that I know IS possible, that the Butterfly Queen has shown me in her indigo eyes, that my Ruffled Princess contributes to with each joyful flash of her eye lashes, when she giggles as she plays with the molecules and creates magnificent gifts for me of such beauty that only the earth mother and her creatures know possible.

I am so grateful for the Ruffled Princess! My friend! She is a beacon of light in my life, and she encourages me every day not to give up, and to keep asking questions, and to keep talking to the shooting stars and asking for their contributions of star dust and magic to our creations on Earth. The shift is here. The shift is YOU reading this. You ARE the Magic and the Miracle. I know you are out there, and you are questioning you and wondering about this world, and you are almost ready to give up. Don't! This is the invitation of the Butterfly Queen: Be YOU! Go for what you know is possible. YOU ARE NOT DREAMING IT! It is real! The JOY you know IS POSSIBLE! What are you waiting for? What you think is a dream IS a possibility of such power and potency! If you just knew what you CAN create! You are not little and insignificant! You are powerful, potent beings made of Light and Joy, Laughter and Magic! You are the Miracle you think is not possible! YOU ARE IT!

So, be it! Seek the inspiration! Create! Go out and look at the stars! Go there and fly! There is one of them that I know that is created by the Butterfly Queen! She welcomes those who ask. And her silk threads are one with the entire creation universe.

I know you CAN do it. You know it too! You just pretend not to know! Would you mind stopping pretending? It doesn't work any more. We saw you. And we know that You know. If you are here reading this, I tell YOU, YOU KNOW!

My friends, I greet you from Earth and from the Stars. I fly with you.

What would you like to create beyond now? What do YOU know is possible?




Saturday, August 16, 2014

Day 28 – Remember The Days?

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Wow! I woke up very early this morning, after only very few hours of sleep!, my heart beating with excitement! “Hey body!”, I asked, “we could still sleep a little longer!” Body said “No! It’s time to get up!” I double-checked whether I was not still tired, and I wasn’t! I was WIDE awake!

Swirling energy in me, more than swirling, some letting go of the old, and new creative energy coming in! Totally amazing no-point-of-view-pure-FUN-energy! Where can I apply this generative creative energy today?

I was going to play and sing at my favorite coffee shop in small town Portage, and I was so excited! Some new cover songs ready to be performed with barely any preparation time at all, fingers quickly creating magic with the guitar, I wondered how I would burn a couple of my new “Gratitude Meditation” cd’s and create the cd cover, all within 30 minutes! I sat down at my mac and just wondered as to ‘What would it take to create that in 30 minutes?’, and also getting a print ready for shipping, in addition, of course, to getting me ready to show up!

At the speed of space, I did it! I created the new cd’s, with a new cover, and also burned a few of the other cd’s that I thought I had ran out of, magically slipped into an outfit that I threw together within 5 minutes, put on the fancy frickin’ awesome shoes that a friend had offered me (as of now they will be called my magical performance shoes), and I grabbed my guitar and my lap harp, and off we went to town!

Seriously, I didn’t have a clue of what I would be creating. I just knew I would be showing up…, and Yes, I did show up! Wow, was that fun! Totally imperfect, and totally GREAT! I spoke in all the languages that I know of, and some more, imitated accents and told stories, changed lyrics, let my voice ‘roll’ its own flow! We all were laughing, sad faces started smiling, we were giggling and being silly and carefree, across all ages! What if we didn’t buy into the sadness and depression? What other choice can we make? This little girl there just in front of me who’s parents had told me that she was so sad, looked at me with curiosity and her blue eyes started beaming joyfully! What if we chose happiness? Her mother was glued to my lips and took in each word! I could see how it computed in her being. Yes, we can make a different choice! What if it was that easy?

The magic we be is not the product of long studies! The stand-up comedian has it, is it! You can of course study anything, and you can study many years, yet the inspiration, the contagious spark comes from the one who stands up and shows up as who he be. You cannot prepare for being. You be it.

I can prepare a song. Singing the song is different. And it is different each time. The color is different, the flow is different, the hue changes with each cloud blown past by the wind. No note is ever the same. There is a deliciousness in that. You dance with it. Without the desire to catch it. It is wild and free and it invites you to dance with it. And you are free also. And in that freeness a new universe is created, stars are being born! It is the everlasting moment of the divine wildness. What else can we create from here?

Today, we made each other’s day. Every single one of us who showed up, for one reason or another, it doesn’t matter, found something more than what we expected that shifted our realities! Joy is possible. Happiness is possible. And it is as simple as choosing it!

In small-town Midwest, not in Paris, not in New York City, not in Tokio, we created a spark, an inspiration, that went into the earth and around it and beyond it. And it created something so different, something so beautiful!

I got a card from a friend from NYC today, and she wrote “Remember the days when you first moved in and found a lovely chair in Manhattan and had to cab it to Queens?” I do remember! And I remember how the cab driver wanted to kill me for that. I was determined to finagle this huge chair into the trunk of his car and take it with me to my new home in Forest Hills! It’s a little example of perceiving the miracle in the moment. Finding this chair in the street and ask “Wow, how do I get this big baby to Queens?” and seeing the possibility and not listening to this reality’s lies of impossibility. The driver said it wasn’t possible. And I knew we could do it! Against his bitching and complaining we managed to get the chair in, and I could take it to my new home!

I have many stories like that!

What do we choose each moment? Joy or sadness? Possibility or impossibility?

Something changed today, for all of us, for the earth, for the future! I'm receiving brilliant, exciting water-bubbling-energy-sparkles-of-oxygenated-infinitely-joy-enhanced-molecules-beyond-great- creation-phenomenal-possibilities! Thank you universe! I wonder what else is possible from here?

Sunday, August 10, 2014

“The Large Blue Horses” (Die Grossen blauen Pferde) by Franz Marc

The Large Blue Horses” (Die Grossen blauen Pferde) by Franz Marc

I walked into the Kandinski exhibit at the Milwaukee Art Museum the other day, in total anticipation and excitement about seeing the amazing works of one of my favorite painters! Little did I know what I really went there for.

Making a strolling turn into the second exhibit room, I stopped in my tracks, staring at this large painting of the blue horses! Magnetically drawn to it, I heard the words “There you are, my friends! It’s been a long time! So good to see you again!”, and I started crying with tears of what seemed to be so similar to recognition. What did I recognize? I wanted to touch it, to follow the lines with my hands, again. These amazing lines, so precise, so sure and confident, and so allowing and flexible! The deep blue, the bold deep blue! I looked around, and the security guy started to follow my every move. He must have picked up on my energy! My cell phone in my hand, I waited for a moment to take a picture, yet his suspicious eyes didn’t give me a second of a break…

“Oh! Never mind!”, I thought and took advantage of the remaining time I had with the horses, the colors and the energy of sunset anthems.

I got as close as I could under severe surveillance and looked closely at the reds, blues, yellows, and I thought “Next time, I would give it more detail.” Wow, who’s thought was that?

I remembered, in my teens I had a post card of one of Franz Marc’s blue horse paintings! I had it pinned on my wall in my room.  I loved it, and it gave me strength. The colors gave me joy, and the boldness of these beloved animals that meant so much to me seemed like the comfort of a good friend that was always present for me in moments of despair.

I had never seen any of these paintings in this lifetime in physical form.
They are somehow part of me, part of my being.

Could it be the space of creation where we have access to all creations that have ever been created? Access to each molecule that has ever been invited and received to dance the dance, to contribute to and play with each other and be the magic with the artist?

I am so grateful today for having experienced that grace, that wonder, that blueness that took shape on the canvas in these magnificent creatures.

My windows and doors opened, and they are gone. Open space instead. How many more magnificent beings, planets and universes will I create?

Thank you!

Wednesday, August 6, 2014

Ruffled Princess at My Garden Gate

"Ruffled Princess at My Garden Gate"

I so love flowers! They inspire me to be so much more than I have been willing to know that I can be! There is a delicacy about them, combined with great strength and a willingness to just be! 

I create them in a space of being. Seriously, from a mental point of view, a thought process, I don't have a clue how to paint it. To me, there is more of a sensation of them being there with me while I paint. The shapes, the movements, sometimes drastic moves and turns. The line really never IS straight. How to paint something so delicate? How to evoke it onto a canvas?

And the entire universe is there with me while I paint. We are moving together, every brush stroke being a question, a possibility. 

The beginning always feels 'raw'. It's like saddling a horse. You be with it while you brush it and clean the hooves, while feeding it an apple. Great anticipation of an amazing ride. You be with it, talking with it, sensing the horse’s breath, the muzzle when it searches for the apple in my pocket. While the painting patiently waits for this amazing moment when layers and layers of paint finally come together in a symphony, where the roughness of the first touches ceases passage to the alchemy of depth and blends and hues and shapes. Where before there were loose elements, there now is an orchestration that sings in beautiful harmonies. 

How did I do this? And, how can I create more of this, with total ease?

And we leave the stable on a sunny day, ready for the ride, in total joy and excitement of the magic that we are going to create in the world.

The "Ruffled Princess at My Garden Gate" smiled and waved her delicate head at me, and my heart jumped with laughter. "Come with me!", she said with a sparkle in her eyes. We didn't talk while she lead me onto a trail that I hadn't noticed before, right there behind the cedar tree. I had been by that tree so many times. We walked past it and it seemed as if we passed through a glowing gate, invisible to the eye yet very noticeable to my entire body and being.

I have goose bumps as I follow my princess who's hands are so small, yet radiate a strength that I can hardly describe. Her hands talk directly to each molecule of my body and being. Most welcoming, she guides me down the trail to a field of flowers. The glow is golden, and bees and dragonflies and other winged beings that I remember faintly in my universe dance around us. 

The trail ends at a bridge. Die Bruecke ist golden, feinstes Gusswerk von Meisterhand. Sie ist geschmueckt mit Blumen und Ornamenten laengst vergangener Zeiten. 'I love this bridge, and I know it!', I think to my surprise. My body also remembers, and my hand automatically touches the small golden pad at the right side of the bridge. It reads my fingerprint with magic and gives me passage by releasing a bell sound. I step onto the bridge with my princess following. The pond we cross is calm, and a gentle mist hovers over it, like sugar candy. No sound. Quiet. Welcome. 

Tiny lights emerge from the distance, coming closer and gathering on the other side of the bridge. I put my foot onto the ground, and the tiny lights gather around me. Touching me gently. Caressing my hair. Such a delight fills my entire body. Sparkles and giggles in me. My molecules are dancing in recognition! Gentle music within me and around me.

The path continues into a forest. Surrounded by the dancing lights and greeted by each tree I come to a place that shifts everything in me, brings everything back into its place, heals the wounds of the fights, mends that heart that never was broken, erases the memories and lifetimes into the now that is past, present and future simultaneously, with not judgment, just knowing, being, perceiving and receiving it all. It comes together. The trails that merge into space. The tree. I have seen it before. I have been there before. The space with the starry black sky, the light, the quiet sound, being. My lungs expand and I take the first real breath after trillions of years. I walk to the giant tree, tears of joy running down my face. "I missed you, my friend!" my words. "I know you too!" it's reply. We sit together for the longest time. Silent conversation. Clarity. Knowing. Being. I change. Forever. Nothing is going to be the same again. The very chemistry of my being and my body are transformed. I see. Vast space. The starry sky at first deep blue, then indigo, than space. Everything motion, creation, being. Questions from the silent space of knowing. 

What else is possible from here?

And the Ruffled Princess at my Garden Gate, with tears in her indigo eyes, smiles back at me, and I know that this is just the beginning of a phenomenal creation that I had thought was not possible, that I had thought I had lost, that I had almost given up on. Until today that the little princess showed me the way....

Monday, August 4, 2014

Journey of a Being

"Journey of a Being" by Bettina
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What do I know that I refuse to know? What do I perceive that I refuse to perceive? 
What do I be that I refuse to be? What do I receive that I refuse to receive?
And what energy, space and consciousness can I be that would allow me to perceive, know, be and receive everything that I refuse to perceive, know, be and receive?

I finished the painting. The deep space blues gave me so much space! Breath of color, veils of new creation, gently, softly weaving with fierce determination! Gazing into the depth of indigo and purple! Galaxies spinning and stars sending sparkles of possibilities. Being that space!

I demand of myself to be that. Move with the soreness, no matter what, be with it, be grateful for even that. Receiving from each and every molecule in the universe. Lower the barriers around the soreness, not protecting it, not protecting my vulnerability. Let more energy and contribution in. Allowing receiving of so much more.

How much have I been unwilling to let each molecule’s contribution in?
I demand it now. Walls and barriers down!!! Undefined possibility… and question…

I be space. I be… infinite…. I be quiet…. Space for next second’s choice….

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