“High Priestess Moon Being” by Bettina
molecules in space, photography and space of creation
In the past, whenever I couldn’t create
something that I wanted to create, I would make me wrong, dynamically. I’ll
give you a very recent example: I applied for being a resident artist for two
months at a hotel in Costa Rica. The space is beautiful, surrounded by nature!
And I wondered what I would and could be creating there. I saw it and felt it. “What
else is possible here?”, I wondered.
Within a week after applying, I received a
reply from their art consultant. She said my art was beautiful but didn’t fit
into their concept. Furthermore, my art was not contemporary but modern, and
they would only choose contemporary artists. Wow! So interesting! So, was I
dead now? I always thought contemporary art was done by artists that are alive
and create at present. Oh, well, all these labels are limitations, yes? She
basically tried to find an ‘intelligent’ way to say no.
But I don’t want to go into labels and
definitions here. That would be for another article.
What I would like to talk about here, and
this is why I brought up this example, is how I would react to this. In the
past, I would have made me and my paintings totally wrong. Based on the idea of
“If I only painted the right thing, the right way, then, I would be accepted,
collected, appreciated, in demand, successful” and so forth. So, what I would
then basically choose was that I was wrong and that what I created was wrong,
and therefore I couldn’t be and create what I wanted to be and create….
I would so define and confine myself in my
wrongness that the cage around me (and my paintings) would get tighter and
tighter. For a brief moment, I got the sensation again that my body showed me
when I chose that. A tightness in my chest and throat and anger creeping up
everywhere! I would literally stop creation! I would freeze in my wrongness.
And as I would see wrongness only, I would also not see anything that went
beyond it. I had created a limitation that would make sure that I would
only see wrongness and never go beyond it. A perfect way to keep me from being.
How much creation was possible in that place? Not much! How much was I banging
my head against the wall (that I had set up)? Constantly!
Gary Douglas says that every judgment creates
the limitation that we cannot overcome, and that we cannot perceive anything
that doesn’t match that judgment. What this means is, when we choose to make
ourselves wrong, which is judgment, then we cannot see anything else but that
wrongness.
That is totally debilitating, destructive and
sabotaging unconsciousness.
I had just participated in an amazing
telecall series facilitated by Gary Douglas, called “Deal
and Deliver For YourLife – Changing Reactions to Actions”, and this class
was filled with amazing tools!
Now, can you see that I always went into
reaction whenever I couldn’t create what I wanted to create? I would have
reacted to the art consultant’s decision of not accepting me, by making me
wrong and making my paintings wrong. And, at the same time, I would even make
her point of view right and real and defend against it.
In the teleclass, Gary Douglas said “If I can’t
get something the way I wanted, I work my ass off to get something greater!”
and he would also ask “What greater thing can I choose and create here?”
So, instead of choosing wrongness and victim,
we can choose greater! Wow! This tool opened my universe! Instead of shrinking
and stopping myself, what greater can I create? This created such an ease and
kindness in my universe and also in my body!
What if instead of choosing wrongness we
choose being? How much of this rejection/non acceptance have I actually created
from my point of view? Our points of view create our reality! If we have the
underlying belief of being wrong, what reality are we creating? The phenomenal
reality of infinite possibility, or the ever-shrinking box of limitation,
judgment and impossibility? Yeah, the second.
And, what if other people’s points of view
don’t matter? What if we don’t make them real?
What if I don’t expect a certain outcome,
making that outcome a necessity so that I can be right, finally? What if each
and every application was a question for the universe? Like “What greater can I be and create here?” Do you get
the space and motion that that creates? Rather than confinement and definement
and waiting for the right answer? Using the tools from the telecall allowed me
to not go into wrongness. It gave me the awareness of their choice with no
judgment about it and no reaction, and also the awareness of what else I can
choose. And can just keep moving and create greater. (I might eventually
even forget that I applied for something....)
I choose to choose greater from here! What
truly is possible from the space of infinitely greater creation with ease and
joy and the space of being?
There has been a lightness in my footprint
ever since I chose that, ever since I chose me, and I wonder what this greater
ease and joy of being will create for the future and for the kingdom of we?
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Access Consciousness® was founded by Gary
Douglas, one of the most brilliant people on the planet. All the tools in this
article are derived from Access Consciousness®. Read more about Access Consciousness®
at www.AccessConsciousness.com.
Bettina 'Star-Rose' Madini is an artist,
singer, speaker and an Access Consciousness® Certified Facilitator. Born in
Berlin, Germany, she is currently living in the United States. Bettina’s
paintings can be found in corporate and private collections in Europe,
Australia and in the United States. She offers Painting workshops and
facilitates Access Consciousness® Core Classes, internationally. To find
Bettina’s classes and see her art work please visit: www.BettinaStar-Rose.com.
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