A challenge for me these past days: When I am painting I
forget about time, appointments, schedules, what my classes require, the
organizational part of my creations, even driving somewhere. Thinking
definitely is.... gone... I keep asking 'What's required here?', 'What question
am I not asking?', 'What question can I ask that would change this?' It's even
a challenge to get away from my easel! Yet I know other creations require my
attention...
It's like a new space of me that is so
much bigger! Unfamiliar territory.... open... pieces of old walls.... I'm
having a sensation of tumbling.... What is this? Is it confusion? No. Is it
more of me showing up? Yes. How can I have ease with this? My body is showing
me intensity in my stomach.... Am I falling or.... am I flying? Hey, creations,
what contribution can I be to you today? What contribution can you be to each
other? Oh, that brings lightness! What else is possible from here?
When I try to stop me, that might be when I am aware of
others trying to stop me and thinking it's mine.... and judging me and thinking
it's my judgment.... When I'm aware of the confusion of the world about what
creation is and thinking it's mine.... What if I used all this twisted
stuff that this reality is made of and used all this energy FOR me?
What am I aware of that I'm not willing to be aware of? What
would it take for me to express more capacities and to
create more dynamically than ever before, while simultaneously being totally
aware of what is required, with great ease?
And, what if......... Could it be that nothing of this is mine?
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